I want to be Number One

So, today I had another successful interview. I am surprised to find that I actually enjoy the interview process. There's something to say about sitting with 3 or 6 people and talking about education and how I view it.
However, the difficulty with this process is that you need to make yourself number one. Second, third.... place does not get the job. All it takes is for one other candidate to be just a little bit better than you are, and you are out of a job. Oh, I am so glad that God is in control.
Here's to hoping that maybe one of the two positions will think I'm number one (ahhh).

What I need

Go to google type "[your name] needs" and write the first ten appropriate responses (thanks to Lauren for the idea).

Finally get to find my true needs. They are as follows:

1. Emily needs almost 24-hour care because her disability often leaves her feeling confused and frightened. She expresses these emotions in self-destructive physical violence even when she sleeps.
2. Emily needs a system that will provide stability.
3. Emily needs books.
4. Emily needs to be told NO and be whipped into shape by Nanny 911.
5. Emily needs something that's her own to fulfill her.
6. Emily needs to get control of her business and find a way to keep her balance in her life between what she does for work and the kinds of work that she makes and the time she has for herself.
7. Emily needs a gangsta.
8. Emily needs to be with a man whose family will accept her and her family will accept the man.
9. Emily needs a sponsor.
10. Emily needs eating companions.

Um....very interesting information. I may take some of it to heart (especially the gangsta one).

Today

1. Got up at 6:30 a.m.
2. Went to work for 6.5 hours where I: Grab a package of seed. Weight 1.8g. Put into new envelope. Place sticker on new envelope. Staple new envelope. Repeat 550 times.
3. Drove home.
4. Took a 15 minute nap.
5. Studied, studied, studied.

Although I can't complain about being bored, I'll be so glad when I finally have a career that I enjoy. No more brainless mechanical work or boredom book reading.

Valentine's Day

I declare that February 14th as a day of love for family and friends. Let's get away from this obsessive couple stuff, and rest it on the unconditional love of friends and family.

Therefore, consider this a Valentine to all my family and friends:

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I wouldn't be happy
Without You

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I have Christian community
Cuase God gave me You

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Yes, it's true
I love You

(yah, yah, I royally suck at poetry but you get the point)

I found it!

I found my relaxant. It's called dancing, snow-ball fights, and snow soccer. Anything that I can "legally" take my aggression on.
This weekend I got to do all three (within a 24 hour span) and I am the most relaxed I've felt in ages.

Things I Hate

I ABSOLUTELY hate resumes and applying for jobs. Who has the right to judge me by a piece of paper? Seriously, just because I can list the things I've done, doesn't mean I've done them well or even completed them. What about my character, passions, dreams, desires, faults, strengths, etc. It's all based according to my wording, lack of grammatical mistakes, and use of white space. Thats crap!!

Dreams

I have lately been faced with the reality of some of my dreams coming true. However, the problem is that when they come true they no longer become dreams. It's like you have to look at your dreams from a realistic perspective instead of a fantasy.

It's moments when you are faced with big decisions that you have to decide what it is you really want. Not what your friends think is cool, or what your parents don't. What is it that I really want to do? I mean REALLY want to do?

Anxiety

Lately I've found myself struggling with a bit of anxiety. I'm not really sure about why, but I do know when. It occurs during class, in cars, and during the week. I need to find ways to relax. Some suggestions I've been given are:

• listen to jazz music
• get a massage
• go to a tanning bed
• eat chocolate
• take a bath (personally....I really hate taking baths)
• go for a walk

How do you relax?